No Other Option

I ddon't knowwww wwhat TO do.

I wrote my appeal already, but I don't know how much sympathy I'll be able to get, considering most of my set backs are personal or financial.

I mean, I am doing extravagantly better than the last two years of high school because we're finally settled financially and have a roof over our heads and I can afford things for a majority of the time and I don't have to constantly worry about resources, but I don't know if they'll look at my C in Calculus and be like no even though it's like....it's like Chayo.

Well, an appeal wouldn't hurt. And at least I'm not just giving up, because then I'll regret it all my life.
But if I don't get into UC Davis at this point, and my family remains stubborn and refuses to help me, I'll have to go to a community college. And that would be incredibly horrible because those classes are impacted to no end with kids that were prepared to go to community college and I'm probably not going to be able to get into the classes I need to take and will have to be set back a year or two if I can't finish my general ed. It just wouldn't be an ideal situation.

And my mom's going to be alone. And my sister's leaving. And we can't take that. Who's going to take care of my mom. Who's going to make sure everyone's okay. I'm so afraid.

And I really hope this appeal goes through because this is my last chance. This is my very last chance. And now my entire family is just "Just stay here, give up on the university. Just go to community college. It's easier," but I can't argue with them because I just start crying. Why can't they let me out. Why can't they accept that I don't want to be a nurse or stay in Folsom to get married. I want to do something with my life.

So yes, my devotion to a university is me rebelling in a way. And I hope this dream of mine comes true because once I don't have to rely on them, I'll finally be able to be my own person.