Terrified.

Hi, everyone. So I began this blog sophomore year, right? Well there were two posts on this blog, but they were perfectly horrid. I mean it was before I was the senior me and before the junior me, it was plain terrifying. Gross. 

And oh my goodness, this blog's name has to change because that's just no. I have a Tumblr, so I guess I'll just revert everything on this blog to the theme I have going on on my other blog (which is awesome because I'm less me in it, so you should go follow me, homie). 

Okay, well it's senior year, right? So acceptance letters are coming out and AP testing's about to begin and finals are just around the corner and all of this is happening right now. And I've been accepted to two colleges, no biggie, but UC letters are coming out at the end of the month and I just terribly want to get into UC Davis, but I'm afraid my initial slacking coming into high school put a burden on my application and they're just not going to like me. And that's terrifying. I mean, I could be rejected from Irvine and San Diego as well, and that possibility gets me no sleep at night. 

And it wasn't even that I was a bad student all of high school, I just completely believed I was expected to go to a JC and I had absolutely no chance at a university. I did the bare minimum and didn't care too much if I got a B here or there, it was no big deal, right? Because I was going to community college? Well that didn't exactly work out. A week before applications opened, my brain (my very very close companion) and my closest cousin said I had a chance. And that's all it took. 

Needless to say, I was not prepared, nor was I knowledgeable of any of the processes or steps needed to be taken to get into a college. I was entirely lost. 

Anyways. I got into SDSU (Honors Program that I didn't sign up for because that was in February and I still needed more letters) and Cal Poly Pomona. Those were no problem, I think. But I oh so terribly want to get into Davis. I mean I would gladly hand over my uterus.